My Moarning Past

A time when death was around the corner

 

Stuart says:
Good luck
~Zanza, Defender of kittens And Mastermind of RPs!!!! Deleting this account in 0 days! says:
nani?
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
yo
~Zanza, Defender of kittens And Mastermind of RPs!!!! Deleting this account in 0 days! says:
sup
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
me at this point. i think i'd like to be sleeping @_@
~Zanza, Defender of kittens And Mastermind of RPs!!!! Deleting this account in 0 days! says:
your choice
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
no i just mean that i'm kinda sick and kind of tired, so i'll probably go take a nap later
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
so....i'm supposing smalltalk should just get set aside and we kind of get to the situation at hand here
~Zanza, Defender of kittens And Mastermind of RPs!!!! Deleting this account in 0 days! says:
your choice, your move... it's gonna be REAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAALLY hard to convince me...but you know me... i can be convinced... but I dont have much to say that you already dont know... so yes.. your say your move, your chooice
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
?? i just got really confused
~Zanza, Defender of kittens And Mastermind of RPs!!!! Deleting this account in 0 days! says:
stu told me you wanted to do something about the situation...go ahead
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
he told me likewise about you
~Zanza, Defender of kittens And Mastermind of RPs!!!! Deleting this account in 0 days! says:
ok then... you start
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
well...basically i'm cool with you coming back to Silent Cry. i understand that the original banning of you was a dumb move on my part, and was something more personal at the time than anything, so i apologize for that
~Zanza, Defender of kittens And Mastermind of RPs!!!! Deleting this account in 0 days! says:
k, what else?
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
i'm....not really sure what you're talking about
~Zanza, Defender of kittens And Mastermind of RPs!!!! Deleting this account in 0 days! says:
does 'restraining order' ring a bell?...
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
well, no offense meant, but you are the one who came up to me like that at work. at anyrate, my dad wanted it more than i did, simply for my protection and my girlfriend's protection for when she's with me
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
so...i was kinda thinkin' you were going to apolgize for that
~Zanza, Defender of kittens And Mastermind of RPs!!!! Deleting this account in 0 days! says:
was the restraining order ever issued? because I never got a notice or police visit or nothing at all; and if you tellme that there is one I AM going to the police station and double check... im trusting you to tell me the truth
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
no, i decided that you were trying to get your life straigtened out and get it in order, and the last thing you needed was more trouble than you already had
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
so i told my dad it wasn't needed, and i never persued it any further
~Zanza, Defender of kittens And Mastermind of RPs!!!! Deleting this account in 0 days! says:
ok then... why did you lie to all my friends and made them take your side instead of mine?
~Zanza, Defender of kittens And Mastermind of RPs!!!! Deleting this account in 0 days! says:
saying that i cant be in teh same forums as you, because of a restrainig order?
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
first and foremost, you can ask everyone, i beat around the bush for a long time, not wanting to say exactly what happened, becuase i didn't want to make you look bad to them. secondly, i also made it clear i didn't want any sides being taken, and dan is definately someone you can talk to abuot that, becuase i made it clear i wanted no sides taken. thirdly, at the time, when we were making the-
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
site, i was going to ge the restraining order, as it happened the day you came up to my work, and it wasn't until later that i decided iwasn't going to get it
~Zanza, Defender of kittens And Mastermind of RPs!!!! Deleting this account in 0 days! says:
you havent answered my question... why did youlied to them?
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
i never lied to anyone
~Zanza, Defender of kittens And Mastermind of RPs!!!! Deleting this account in 0 days! says:
so you didnt tell everyone that you and I can't be in the same forums because I have a restrainig order against me... is that correct?
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
again, i never said that there WAS a restraining order, i said i was GETTING one
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
because, again, as i said, when we made the site, it was a day after the day you came up to my work
~Zanza, Defender of kittens And Mastermind of RPs!!!! Deleting this account in 0 days! says:
alrite... so when i went to your work, what happened? where did I hit you, and what did I say?
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
you came up to my work, punched me in my right shoulder, said 'what's up, bro?' and walked off
~Zanza, Defender of kittens And Mastermind of RPs!!!! Deleting this account in 0 days! says:
ok, did I punch you with fist closed of with the palm of my hand?
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
fist closed
~Zanza, Defender of kittens And Mastermind of RPs!!!! Deleting this account in 0 days! says:
maybe you should go back to work and check the security cameras... because it was with my palm
~Zanza, Defender of kittens And Mastermind of RPs!!!! Deleting this account in 0 days! says:
I took my roomate with me that day if you remember? a fat guy? he saw me do it with my palm
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
well dude, it hit way too hard to be an open hand, and it was enough to jar me nad make me move
~Zanza, Defender of kittens And Mastermind of RPs!!!! Deleting this account in 0 days! says:
and if it was with my palm, and I said "what's up bro?"... couldnt that be taken as a friendly pat in the back?
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
so unless you hit incredibly hard with an open hand
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
er....no?
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
becuase you hit me
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
you didn't pat me
~Zanza, Defender of kittens And Mastermind of RPs!!!! Deleting this account in 0 days! says:
sometimes I cant control my strenght... i was in the army, remember?
~Zanza, Defender of kittens And Mastermind of RPs!!!! Deleting this account in 0 days! says:
so sorry if it was taken as a hit, because it wasnt... if it had been, I wouldnt of have said "wassup bro"
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
well then why did you immediately walk off before you said anything else or i said anything else?
~Zanza, Defender of kittens And Mastermind of RPs!!!! Deleting this account in 0 days! says:
becaue you were workin and everytime I went to your work place and you hada customer, you always said u were busy and tell me to go away
~Zanza, Defender of kittens And Mastermind of RPs!!!! Deleting this account in 0 days! says:
or u just went to teh back room
~Zanza, Defender of kittens And Mastermind of RPs!!!! Deleting this account in 0 days! says:
so i figured that since i dont have a phone and it had been like a month since we last met, i figured I'd say hello
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
i dunno, man
~Zanza, Defender of kittens And Mastermind of RPs!!!! Deleting this account in 0 days! says:
so, what are we gonna do about us?
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
we need a marriage councelor
~Zanza, Defender of kittens And Mastermind of RPs!!!! Deleting this account in 0 days! says:
Im in no mood for jokes with you
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
well....if that's the case
~Zanza, Defender of kittens And Mastermind of RPs!!!! Deleting this account in 0 days! says:
we need to solve this shit, not just for us, but for everyone
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
then i dunno man
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
i need to think about it
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
becuase there's more than just tha happening
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
like...you telling people my dad isn't sick? that he's not dying?
~Zanza, Defender of kittens And Mastermind of RPs!!!! Deleting this account in 0 days! says:
please dont make me start listing all the things you have done...
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
you have no idea how pissed that made me
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
like...nothing?!
~Zanza, Defender of kittens And Mastermind of RPs!!!! Deleting this account in 0 days! says:
ok... richard... your best friend... said taht was BS
~Zanza, Defender of kittens And Mastermind of RPs!!!! Deleting this account in 0 days! says:
and honestly, I believe him more than I do you
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
aside from put myself out and lose a LOT of friends and a lot of respect to get you a home and keep you there?
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
hell, becuase of what i did, i had two guys come up and threaten to break my nose
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
and my neck
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
and tear my tongue out
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
JUST so i could get YOU a home
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
i had to do a lot of dishonest things
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
and do a lot of things that i now regret
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
and i'm glad that i have changed from those ways
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
all to get you something
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
and what do i get in return? crap
~Zanza, Defender of kittens And Mastermind of RPs!!!! Deleting this account in 0 days! says:
what? my ex roomates? that was tension building up for years because of how you have behaved,
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
er....no
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
and richard said thaT?
~Zanza, Defender of kittens And Mastermind of RPs!!!! Deleting this account in 0 days! says:
and if I remember correctly... I gave youall the money I hadto help you
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
i highly doubt it
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
becuase richard knows the situation of my family
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
he knows it very well
~Zanza, Defender of kittens And Mastermind of RPs!!!! Deleting this account in 0 days! says:
yes, and there is no reason why he would lie about it
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
so the likely hood of him saying that my dad isn't sick and dying is bull crap
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
alright....if you're going to say that
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
and say that about my father
~Zanza, Defender of kittens And Mastermind of RPs!!!! Deleting this account in 0 days! says:
hey... do you want news flash?...  richard is starting to really hate you
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
who i ahve to see suffer every day
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
then you can forget reconciliation
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
i could care less
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
and i could care less about richard hating tme
~Zanza, Defender of kittens And Mastermind of RPs!!!! Deleting this account in 0 days! says:
give me proof
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
*hating me
Stuart says:
hold up
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
i don['t have to prove jack to you
~Zanza, Defender of kittens And Mastermind of RPs!!!! Deleting this account in 0 days! says:
give me proof and I'll believe
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
i don't have to prove jack
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
you're not worth it
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
and neither is richard
Stuart says:
He hasn't actually said anything abiout yoyu dad
Stuart says:
*your dad here
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
yeah he did
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
he said itw as bull
Stuart says:
all he said was Richard said it
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
and that my dad isn't sick
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
and that i have to proove it or he won't believe it
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
but you know what?
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
bad move on you rpart, zanza
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
you have no idea how to make up for stuff
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
especially since YOUR the one asking me to do all of the apologizing
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
a friendly pat on the back?
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
i highly doubt that
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
it was hard
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
it hurt
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
and you walked right off after giving a me a nice go to hell look
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
that's not friendly
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
and then you go around and turn people against me
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
like hadji
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
and stuart
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
and jared
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
you wanna know how bad that pissed me off?
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
especially when they're saying stuff like
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
my dad isn't sick
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
well i tell you all what
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
when my dad dies from Multiple Sclerosis
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
i am going to grab your faces and shove them in his grave
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
and then tell you all to go screw yourselves
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
you're not the ones who have to live with a dying da
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
*dad
 
  Hadji* has been added to the conversation.
 
Stuart says:
...
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
tactful
~Zanza, Defender of kittens And Mastermind of RPs!!!! Deleting this account in 0 days! says:
hmm?
Stuart says:
he's only observing, thats what he said
~Zanza, Defender of kittens And Mastermind of RPs!!!! Deleting this account in 0 days! says:
im all ears... and I did apologize for the 'hit'
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
i'm not an animal in a zoo
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
i don't want to be 'observed'
Stuart says:
...observe as in observe the convo...
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
you know...i really don't care
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
it's not worth my time or effort
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
i gave it a shot
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
and you blew it zanza
~Zanza, Defender of kittens And Mastermind of RPs!!!! Deleting this account in 0 days! says:
huh? I apologized!
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
you screwed it all up when you started talking about my dad, started writing off you hitting me as a friendly pat, and started making me out to seem like some sort of bad guy
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
i'm seriously not going to put up with it
~Zanza, Defender of kittens And Mastermind of RPs!!!! Deleting this account in 0 days! says:
want me to say it again? ok... sorry that I slapped you back hard, it wwasnt my intention, im sorry
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
i've had to deal with you turning hadji and stuart an d jared against me
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
i'm dealing with you telling people that the situation of my family is a lie
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
i'm dealing with you spreading around crap about me, and having people come after me for what i did to help you
~Zanza, Defender of kittens And Mastermind of RPs!!!! Deleting this account in 0 days! says:
ok, if it isnt true, tehn I apologize for that as well
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
you're just saying that becuase hadji is here
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
before he got here it was 'proove it and i'll believe it'
Stuart says:
I doubt that
~Zanza, Defender of kittens And Mastermind of RPs!!!! Deleting this account in 0 days! says:
nope, I dont lie josh, I dont know if you have figured that out by now... but lying is one thing I dont do
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
hm? then why are you telling people that my dad isn't sick?
Stuart says:
wrong info?
~Zanza, Defender of kittens And Mastermind of RPs!!!! Deleting this account in 0 days! says:
because I've heard from dozens of people that it is a lie...and you told me he was going to die in 6 months... 8 months ago
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
yeah, and that's what they gave him
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
and what dozens of people?
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
since dozens of people have never met my family
~Zanza, Defender of kittens And Mastermind of RPs!!!! Deleting this account in 0 days! says:
ok then... can I go see him and verify that he is in fact sick? if that is the case, I will get on my knees and apologize to everyone
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
out of allt he people that you know, rchard is the only one who knows my father
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
and if he's saying my dad isn't sick, then he's just the prick i know he is
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
i'm almost tempted to say yes just so i can see you do that
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
but i love my father, and i'm not going to turn him into something that you can go and poke questions at about his illness
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
and to be honest?
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
i could careless what you guys believe about me
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
i really don't care
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
a friend would just believe me
~Zanza, Defender of kittens And Mastermind of RPs!!!! Deleting this account in 0 days! says:
im not going to question him, just ask why is he sick, and see if he is bedridden like he should be if he is dying
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
no, he's not bedridden, he has a degenerative disease
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
that means he's dying
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
it's killing him over time
~Zanza, Defender of kittens And Mastermind of RPs!!!! Deleting this account in 0 days! says:
well, he is acristian, right? so if I ask him if he is going to die, he wouldnt lie to me, right?
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
no, he wouldn't
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
but you know what?
~Zanza, Defender of kittens And Mastermind of RPs!!!! Deleting this account in 0 days! says:
josh josh... dontmake me have to go look into hospital records... *sighs*
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
i don't feel like giving you my address so you can know where i live so you can come out to my house at 11 o'clock at night to lie to my parents and tell them you're someone from college, so you can tell me you're going to kick my a** and tell me that if i ever hurt tara that you'll kill me
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
er....hospital records are private, bro
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
you can't just pull up someone's file if you aren't...let's say a doctor, or a relative
~Zanza, Defender of kittens And Mastermind of RPs!!!! Deleting this account in 0 days! says:
then you dont know me that well =]
~Zanza, Defender of kittens And Mastermind of RPs!!!! Deleting this account in 0 days! says:
or a lawyer
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
stay out of my life
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
a lawyer?!
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
what the hell would you need a lawyer for?
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
considering you have nothing to do with my family
Stuart says:
brb
~Zanza, Defender of kittens And Mastermind of RPs!!!! Deleting this account in 0 days! says:
k
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
leave my family alone
~Zanza, Defender of kittens And Mastermind of RPs!!!! Deleting this account in 0 days! says:
hey, im just saying that I could use one
~Zanza, Defender of kittens And Mastermind of RPs!!!! Deleting this account in 0 days! says:
not that Im going to
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
for what?
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
under what cause?
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
what charges against me or my father?
~Zanza, Defender of kittens And Mastermind of RPs!!!! Deleting this account in 0 days! says:
in order for me to find out the truth... you hate me because youare saying taht I lied about him, right? if you wont let me see him, then how am I supposed to find out the truth? only way to do so would be liek that.... unless you dont want me to apologize to everyone for making a mistake
~Zanza, Defender of kittens And Mastermind of RPs!!!! Deleting this account in 0 days! says:
?
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
first off, a lawyer can't do anything like that
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
'i want to fin dout the truth about this guy and see if he's sick'
okay, so why? what legal chargers are being brought up?> what's the case
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
'uh...nothing. i just want to know the truth'
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
sorry, man, but you can't do that
~Zanza, Defender of kittens And Mastermind of RPs!!!! Deleting this account in 0 days! says:
you 100% sure he cant give legal orders for them?
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
yeah, considering the fact that you have no legal reason for them
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
that's called invasion of privacy
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
we're not in any court situation
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
you're not sueing me for anything
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
there's no legal buesiness dealing with my father or his illness
~Zanza, Defender of kittens And Mastermind of RPs!!!! Deleting this account in 0 days! says:
ok... I guess the future will answer you then....
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
leave myf amily the hell alone
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
i could honestly give a crap less what you say or feel or think about me, but leave my familly the hell alone
~Zanza, Defender of kittens And Mastermind of RPs!!!! Deleting this account in 0 days! says:
hey, I've been leaving you and you family alone for about 2 or 3 months now... what are you going on about?; you said I lied to everyone cuz of ur dad, and now Im just trying to make up for it and apologize
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
then just do it
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
don't dig around and snoop for information about my family
~Zanza, Defender of kittens And Mastermind of RPs!!!! Deleting this account in 0 days! says:
how? if you wont let me see him?
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
you don't have to see him
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
he's sick
~Zanza, Defender of kittens And Mastermind of RPs!!!! Deleting this account in 0 days! says:
then how do I know it's teh truth?
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
deal with it
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
how did you know what richard said is the truth?
~Zanza, Defender of kittens And Mastermind of RPs!!!! Deleting this account in 0 days! says:
like I said, I trust him more than I trust you... you havent done a thing to earn my trust other than picking me up from teh bus station in september.
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
i got you  a place to live at my expense
~Zanza, Defender of kittens And Mastermind of RPs!!!! Deleting this account in 0 days! says:
in which btw, you did just drop me off at a strangers house that didnt even know i was coming
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
i lost friends and respect becuase of that
~Zanza, Defender of kittens And Mastermind of RPs!!!! Deleting this account in 0 days! says:
your expense!?... wat expense?
~Zanza, Defender of kittens And Mastermind of RPs!!!! Deleting this account in 0 days! says:
did you pay?
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
let's see
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
i lost friends
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
lots of them
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
i lost a  lot of respect
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
i lost the house i was staying in so that way it was easy for me to go to college
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
and had to move back to bella vista
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
idunno zanza
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
i'm gonna say that i paid a lot
~Zanza, Defender of kittens And Mastermind of RPs!!!! Deleting this account in 0 days! says:
that  my brother, you did yourself... like I told you, that was years of tension building because of the way you acted
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
er...no
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
at anyrayte
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
i'm not going to sit here and be belittled by you
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
you're making me out to be some bad person
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
some horrible rotten person
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
that does nothing but lie
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
well
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
you don't know me zanza
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
you haven't talked to me in
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
what?
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
five months?
~Zanza, Defender of kittens And Mastermind of RPs!!!! Deleting this account in 0 days! says:
imnot, im just trying to know the truth so I can apologize to everyone
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
i don't care anymore zanza
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
i jsut don't care
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
just know that when my father dies, i'll expect you at his funeral so you can sit there and let your consciance get weighed down by the fact that you lied about him
~Zanza, Defender of kittens And Mastermind of RPs!!!! Deleting this account in 0 days! says:
ok then, I dont want to hear you complain anymore about this then.... like I said in teh beginning of this convo.... your choice
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
quit making me out to seem like some sort of bad guy
~Zanza, Defender of kittens And Mastermind of RPs!!!! Deleting this account in 0 days! says:
if you dont care anymore, then dont ever again bring it up
~Zanza, Defender of kittens And Mastermind of RPs!!!! Deleting this account in 0 days! says:
sounds like a plan?
~Zanza, Defender of kittens And Mastermind of RPs!!!! Deleting this account in 0 days! says:
not to me, or to anyone
~Zanza, Defender of kittens And Mastermind of RPs!!!! Deleting this account in 0 days! says:
because if you trully dont care, tehn there is no point in talking about it anymore
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
no, get screwed, because all you're going to keep doing is running my name into the ground so that way you can have some hope of gaining popularity back with people
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
don't involve me in this drama
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
find some other way of doing things
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
but leave me alone
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
leave me out of things
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
don't mention my name
~Zanza, Defender of kittens And Mastermind of RPs!!!! Deleting this account in 0 days! says:
we are not in high school, honesty and trust is way more important than personality
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
forget completely that you even know i exist
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
yeah well guess what?
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
if you knew me at all now
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
you'd know i was honest and trust worthy
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
i sucked in the past
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
i openly admit that i sucked
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
i openly admit that i was dishonest
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
i openly admit that i was not a good person
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
i openly admit that i screwed up
~Zanza, Defender of kittens And Mastermind of RPs!!!! Deleting this account in 0 days! says:
how long ago are we speaking?
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
and if you knew me ONE little bit you would know that i was different
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
what does it matter?
~Zanza, Defender of kittens And Mastermind of RPs!!!! Deleting this account in 0 days! says:
well, you brought it up, I just want to know
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
back around august? when i got kicked out of jake's house?
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
that was a really big wake up call for me
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
i still stucked for a little bit
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
maybe a month
~Zanza, Defender of kittens And Mastermind of RPs!!!! Deleting this account in 0 days! says:
why he kicked u out? o.0
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
or two even
~Zanza, Defender of kittens And Mastermind of RPs!!!! Deleting this account in 0 days! says:
never heard of that one
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
but since then i've been an entirely different person
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
and i'm not going to let you sit here and make it seem like i'm still the same Josh
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
becuase i'm not
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
and maybe that's the thing that makes me most mad
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
that i changed
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
i turned around
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
i saw my mistakes
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
admitted them to everyone
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
apologized for them
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
and changed
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
yet you keep running me into the ground as though i haven't
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
as though i'm the same josh
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
that was a liar and a dishonest ass hole
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
well i'm really sorry
~Zanza, Defender of kittens And Mastermind of RPs!!!! Deleting this account in 0 days! says:
if you changed... then why do people believe ME a stranger? when they've known you for years?
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
but that's not me anymore
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
why are you spreading rumors about me?
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
what people are you talking to?
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
why do you even bring me up?
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
you have no clue who i am anymore, zanza
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
so quit pretending like you know anything about me, what i do, and how i act in my life
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
you have no freaking idea
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
all you have is the garbage bull crap that you knew from abck when you moved to arkansas
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
and all you keep doing is spreading it around
~Zanza, Defender of kittens And Mastermind of RPs!!!! Deleting this account in 0 days! says:
nope, and taht is why I went around asking all your friends about you; and they have told me everything... including how youmade fun of a girl and then she commited suicide because ofyou
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
i mean
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
FUC YOU ZANZA
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
oh my god
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
go to hell
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
i can't believ eyou jsut said that
~Zanza, Defender of kittens And Mastermind of RPs!!!! Deleting this account in 0 days! says:
is it true?
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
i cannot believe you justs aid that
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
go to fucking hell you ass hole
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
oh my dear GOd
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
i cannot believe you just said that
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
jami was a fucking drug addict
~Zanza, Defender of kittens And Mastermind of RPs!!!! Deleting this account in 0 days! says:
you said I didnt know you... but I do know you.. and what you have done
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
she was coming down off of meth and shot herself in the head
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
BULL SHIT!
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
I NEVER DID THAT!
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
DONT YOU DARE SPREAD AROUND THAT I AM RESPONSIBLE FOR SOMEONES SUICIDE YOU SELFISH BASTARD!
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
oh my God
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
you have sunk so low
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
i cannot believe
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
i canNOT believe
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
that you did that
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
that you are spreading that around
~Zanza, Defender of kittens And Mastermind of RPs!!!! Deleting this account in 0 days! says:
im not the one that said it... so i wouldnt be the one spreading the rumour
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
no dude
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
shut your mouth
~Zanza, Defender of kittens And Mastermind of RPs!!!! Deleting this account in 0 days! says:
this is the first time I ve brought it up since Ive heard it
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
quit talking
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
i am so shocked that even you would sink to such a level
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
as to say that i am responsible for somenoe's suicide
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
go to hell, zanza
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
no
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
shut up
~Zanza, Defender of kittens And Mastermind of RPs!!!! Deleting this account in 0 days! says:
I didnt say it... someone else did
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
don't type
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
don't speak
~Zanza, Defender of kittens And Mastermind of RPs!!!! Deleting this account in 0 days! says:
ok then
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
i can not believe
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
that yo uwould do something like that
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
even out of you i expected more
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
who's telling all of you this anyways, richard?
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
me and richard aren't friends
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
ever since he did some really bad things to my close friends, i haven't been on good terms with him
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
ever since he started making fun of me a lot, i haven't been on good terms with him
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
and most certainly, if he's the one telling you all of this, i am not on good terms with him
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
if you are going to sit there with an accusing finger, saying that i am a liar and a dishonest person, than you clearly don't know me
~Zanza, Defender of kittens And Mastermind of RPs!!!! Deleting this account in 0 days! says:
u told me not to type.. so i cant answer
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
i have changed, zanza
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
hadji
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
i have changed
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
i am not the same person i was six and seven months ago
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
yes
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
i have done dishonest things in my life
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
i am a screw up
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
a fuck up
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
whatever
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
i have not led a good life up until about six months ago
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
but i might as well have not even changed, the way you guys are still making me seem
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
i tried so hard to make myself a better person
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
and live a better life
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
and i finally did that
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
and this is what i get for doing it
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
i get you telling me that i made fun of someone so she killed herself
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
for your information, she was stoned and coming down off of meth, and shot herself in the head, leaving only a message 'the best day to die is after the best day of your life'
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
so i had nothnig to do with her death
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
that is beyond sick that you would blame omething like that on me
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
that is....
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
i can't even describe it
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
i wish so much that at least you, hadji, would understand and respect the fact that i've changed
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
that i'm actually a good person now
~Zanza, Defender of kittens And Mastermind of RPs!!!! Deleting this account in 0 days! says:
hadji... give your opinion
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
i wish so much that you would quit the rumors
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
quit listening to storries from seven months ago
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
quit listening to all of the bull crap
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
and basically meet me all over again
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
you might as well, becuase that's how different i am
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
zanza, you truly don't know anything about me
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
you really dont
Stuart says:
SO what....you wanna start over with him?
~Zanza, Defender of kittens And Mastermind of RPs!!!! Deleting this account in 0 days! says:
ok, then lets start over
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
and i wish you'd quit presuming that you know me
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
and the things that go on in my life
~Zanza, Defender of kittens And Mastermind of RPs!!!! Deleting this account in 0 days! says:
then lets starrt over like you said
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
because you keep using them as cards against me for some reason
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
no, when i say start over, i mean completely over, you have no idea who i am, nothing has ever happened in our past, stuart just randomly showed me one of his friends online and we are just meeting. you will hold no grudges, i will hold no grudges, we won't remember a thing from the past
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
not a single thing
Stuart says:
...okay!
~Zanza, Defender of kittens And Mastermind of RPs!!!! Deleting this account in 0 days! says:
no can do man... sorry =]
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
thene forget it
~Zanza, Defender of kittens And Mastermind of RPs!!!! Deleting this account in 0 days! says:
where are my things from germany?
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
how the heck am i supposed to know?
~Zanza, Defender of kittens And Mastermind of RPs!!!! Deleting this account in 0 days! says:
they got sent to your house... someone must of have got them right?
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
O.o no
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
we've never gotten anything
~Zanza, Defender of kittens And Mastermind of RPs!!!! Deleting this account in 0 days! says:
hmmm... I guess we'll find out
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
and there you go again
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
calling me a liar
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
i'm so sick of this
~Zanza, Defender of kittens And Mastermind of RPs!!!! Deleting this account in 0 days! says:
unfortunately... i cant leave you alone until I have my things
~Zanza, Defender of kittens And Mastermind of RPs!!!! Deleting this account in 0 days! says:
BTW... you have 2games of mine and animes
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
well i hate to break it to you, but we've never gotten them
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
they've never been shipped to us
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
we've never recieved even a letter
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
so yes, you can leave me alone
~Zanza, Defender of kittens And Mastermind of RPs!!!! Deleting this account in 0 days! says:
soulcalibur3, fatalframe2,and fruits baskets...my things you have
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
richard should have them
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
since i haven't seen them in months
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
most certinaly since i've moved
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
and richard has a lot of my things from when i moved
~Zanza, Defender of kittens And Mastermind of RPs!!!! Deleting this account in 0 days! says:
so all 3 of my things... richard has them?
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
that would be my guess, since i don't have them
 
  Stuart has left the conversation.
 
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
who knows
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
one of my friends might have taken them, you might have taken them back at some point, i have no clue. all i know is i don't have them
~Zanza, Defender of kittens And Mastermind of RPs!!!! Deleting this account in 0 days! says:
so you gave them to him? you lost them?he stole them? what?
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
this was such a mistake even talking to you
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
all you did was make me look worse than you've already been making me
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
look, i'm done with this conversation
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
go on, keep saying what you want about me
.josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] says:
but you should know after all of this that it isn't true
 
  .josh loves jesus. [.maybe i'm a lion.] has left the conversation.

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Heh... Well I finally decided to leave my mark on this world, even if it is as small as this; People may remember my past to make their future a better one. This was the most difficult part of my life, many say the same thing about themselfs... but when the mind of someone is in a war with itself trying to choose between life and death... Well, it's just unforgettable. The events occured on this blog happened the 1st of August of 2001, I was 19 years old... and so my nightmare began.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ My Diary (uncensored)~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Ok, I think that it was about 2 or 3 days ago that it all began... yes 2 days ago exactly, what a way to begin a month. Today is the 3rd of August of 2001, but more importantly let's go to the beginning... the fist of August.

It's 7:00 am and I just got off work, and like always I'm waiting for my father to pick me up (Because it's like 15 miles from here to my house and it takes 20 minutes in his truck) Like always also, my father gets here at 7:20 am, Late as Usual.

The surprise is that today we weren’t going directly to the house, but to other places. Me like always at that time I’m falling asleep; anyways after a few turns we ended up in the bank and he asked me to check how much money I had so I could pay the rent, which is 50$ a week, which is not too bad; but it is if I hadn’t been working.

Well at the end it resulted that I had like 30$ in the bank and nothing, we left the bank, and in the way home my father starts yelling at me. About why I didn’t have no money, why didn’t I save for a car, He tells me I lied to him when I said that I had called that shit about my drivers license…

I did call and an answering machine came up every time I called, I tried to explain him, but he didn’t even let me talk, in the end between all the curses he told me; He said that I was leaving his house that same day.

When I got home I looked for the phone book and I showed him the number; but he denied to look at it and he told me that I started packing my shit, I asked him where I was going to sleep and he answered me that he didn’t care, between more cursing (non from my part) I went to my room and I started to pack everything… about 11:00am I was done.

I thought about staying to sleep at work, until I thought about about something, but the problem was my baggage, where am I going to leave them? Then I remembered my neighbor, I went there and I explained what happened and I asked if I could leave my luggage there meanwhile. She so kind asked me to stay over that night and that she would try and help me to get to work.

Ok, solution for a day, so then I return home and I send Emails to Martha and my mom explaining what is going on; when I was finished I asked my father if I could stay until I had enough money as to go back to Venezuela or at least to rent a house. But he denied again.

It’s like 12:00 and I already moved all my stuff to the house of the neighbor. I went online to reply to Martha and my mom as to what was going on, but just before I could send my first Message, my father arrives and he turns off the monitor of the computer, he tells me that it was his computer, and to get off of it; I tried to tell him that I had atleast the right to inform them of what is happening. But he denied again and he finished kicking me out of my house…

All I could do was think and sleep… I slept for 18 hours awakening and falling asleep again, at least about 10 times until I stopped sleeping at about 6:00 am of the 2^nd of August and I could just think about the Solutions-Consequences-possibilities to the problems I got, and also ofcourse, Why did I get kicked out from the house?

Ok, I was left to admit that it was my fault as much as my father for not being reasonable, that I hadn’t received no money for 2 months, and I have to pay for gas which is about 20 $ weekly and 50$ also for the rent; I just started working a week ago and I hadn’t gotten paid nothing and I paid for my food also, because he never gave not even a dollar for nothing (of course there is also my games which is my fault, but I only spent 200$ and nothing more) and because I was about to get paid, I was going to start saving again and pay my father, but it looks like he couldn’t wait any longer and he kicked me out.

OK, Im straight with what happened I only have to find solutions like: Go to Venezuela, go active duty in the Army, look for a house… but after thinking I was left with one conclusion, go to Venezuela…

But the question is how? I need money to pay for the plane ticket; Soon I found the answer: 1. Wait for my 1.500$ bonus from the army, which is more than enough to go and have reserves for when Im in Venezuela and hold a little bit until I have a job and I can sustain myself (but ofcourse waiting for the bonus is like asking for a miracle) So I came up with number 2. work for a week or so until I have enough money.

But then another problem rose, Where will I sleep? How am I going to get to work everyday without a car? Another answers came up… Sleep at work for a week until I have the money for a Hotel…

Ok, I think I got everything planned, when I go talk to the neighbor, she tells me that my father talked to her and he told her not to do anything for me… I ask her if I could at least keep my luggage there and she didn’t mind… then she tells me that my father is going to take me to work and leave me there…

Then, I prepar

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